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After college, I joined an odd little utopia of movie nerds working out of an office on lower Broadway. Then the sustainability of the setup started to seem questionable.
By Lena Dunham
I made my first short film during a summer break from college at Oberlin, right after I turned twenty. I called it a satire, although I’m not sure I even knew what that meant. It was about a high-powered teen-age art dealer who bossed around people several times her age, a scenario that seemed like a fairy tale but was, in retrospect, a rather prescient vision of my life to come. I cast my family members and used our home, a loft in Tribeca, as both a production office and a set. I haven’t watched the film in two decades—I’m sure I would be both charmed and alarmed by its amateurishness—but at the time it felt like one small step for me, one giant leap for womankind. It’s that kind of hubris that defines being a young artist, and it should never be beaten out of anyone.
I submitted the film to the Sundance Film Festival’s even more indie counterpart, Slamdance, and when it was accepted I felt as though my life was beginning. I booked tickets to Park City, Utah, and dragged along my best friends at the time, Audrey and Sara—two stunningly petite brunettes who made me feel both more and less worthwhile when they flanked me. There was a Facebook group for accepted filmmakers, where cheap house shares were posted, and we secured a single king-size bed in a rundown ski lodge, which we split with film bros in their thirties and their wanly supportive girlfriends. All we knew was that the festival promised celebrity sightings (I kept track on the back of an envelope: Jared Leto! Gary Coleman! Teri Hatcher! Scott fucking Speedman!) and, if we played our cards right, the chance to get very drunk using our fake I.D.s.
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